Fell out of bed
fell out of bed this morning with my eyes open wide
and it dawned on me that "i" had to be the one who
is on my side. so many years i have wasted in my attempts
to please this world, and now i know just like that xmas
glow in the eyes of boys and girls.
put on my socks and then i put on my shoes and i laced
them up real tight. and thought about the ways and so
many days i chose to give up on this fight. at first i got
mad and then i got sad because the decision lives in me.
never again will i be so content an lay down and just let it be.
as the sun hit my face it unthawed my mind and sent an email
to my brain and it was clear as day as i made my way like rain
rolling down a window pane. walked in the kitchen and grabbed
me a glass to quench my dying thirst. never again will i put
myself last, instead i think i'll put myself first, yes first!!!
quickly walked to the front door and opened it as far as i could
looking past many bad things in a quest, to actually find something
good. ended up on the sidewalk with morning breeze blowing across
my face. so i turned to the left and put my hand on my chest and
vigourously picked up my pace.
at the end of the block children laughed and played as i contently went
my way. and they smiled at me as i walked by in the most mystical and
magical of ways. turning the corner i thought back in my mind to the days
i myself was a child. no father figures to guide what a confusing ride but
had a mother who's love burned wild.
across the street i noticed a car with a very small child inside, waving
at me so frantically and enthusiastically enjoying her ride. her eyes
and mine frozen in time and for a moment we truley were one. an in
her smile i finally realized within the journey should also be some fun!